My home, my refuge had become my prison. wandered through the house, smelling the laundry detergent of the residents, closing windows, looking so much necessary and vital for do and I can not. My plants, I've been slowly deteriorating over the past five years. My Agapornis, are so tolerant with me to wait a month to clean his cage, he does not tolerate even change the water every day ....
need to leave home, I needed to get back to work! Knowing that 7-month low have not been able to do chores at least once a week cooking, going to the doctor, by car, although the distance is 200 meters ... pay someone to fix the house. 2 years without stepping on the beach, despite having it for 10 minutes but had no strength for that. needed look normal! be a person.
Diet Dr. Arnold had made me improve a lot, environmental control is difficult living in a city or village, but it helped me a lot. is painful as a bad diagnosis you may be slowly killing, CHEMICAL SENSITIVITY IS NOT Fibromyalgia, exercise, dance, muscle relaxants, antidepressants, anxiolytics, analgesics, vitamins, chemicals and more chemicals ... ... all that were destroying me, pills and more pills. With the new treatment, ELIMINATE CHEMICALS AND DRUGS LOSJUSTOS, got just miss one or two days a week some weeks none! then of course be, afternoons and weekends bed, but the work, although simple, simple, made for "clumsy" flattered me to do so even if slow. I had already used years ago to leave work responsibility.
start working on a Tuesday, 4 business days from 8 to 3. First week, very tired but very happy. Arrive on Friday at home and to bed, I did not lift until Sunday to eat, I thought: work yesterday? Today is Saturday? Lost Weekend.
Easter, three working days, special hours of 9 to 2. Good time to get used to the body and get to sleep at least two hours of sitting. Four days of celebration, good prospects, two for me and Saturday and Sunday for my little family. It was not possible, my attempt to rest for two days in an apartment I found in winter, completely empty, I turned where once a month in winter. I did not fall the pool would be working, German, English, enjoying the 20 degree heat. freshener in the air conditioning went not let me breathe .... As I woke up, I had to run away and go home in the morning. At 3 am was in the emergency room with oxygen, and other medications to open the airway.
begins the third week of work, serious and complete, and body had gotten used to go to bed at 10, sleeping from 1 to 3, and getting up at 7, not force, but I'm able to generate adrenaline to do what I like.
horrible, clumsy, doing the job well, making mistakes over and over again, unable to concentrate on something so simple. I went out to stretch our legs and clear your head, the exhaust pipes cars, motorcycles, buses, commercial air fresheners, bleach in doorways, cologne, perfume ... .. Nausea, dizziness and muscle pain, malaise are almost immediate. A few hours are one body "inert" and a blank mind, no energy to think.
Friday ... and I could not get out of bed yesterday at 5 pm. Now I get up to write, I need to stop writing my disappointment, my disappointment, my sadness, all my plans :
"Come spring, as osteoporosis has been installed in my bones, I can leave work, go to the beach are 10 minutes, twice a week may take the sun an hour, and breathe the sea air ... I was excited. Everything has collapsed again.
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